oh, sid. i just read your response to the message about how you could feel a lot better and be a lot happier if only you tried to make yourself less obnoxious and egocentric. what i don't get - and i'm sure others reading this are also wondering - what is it you think you stand to lose by no longer being so pretentious, obnoxious and narcisstic?? it wouldn't even if considered pandering to please others, which is how you currently see it! you're preventing yourself from meaningful relationships.
I wish this made sense, I was trying to work what point you were trying to make